I can't sleep.
Let me tell you a secret.

I used to be an angel.
I will be there whenever they need me.
I won't judge and just stay still.
Soothing them who ask for comfort.

I used to be that neighbor you always want to have.
Sending smile to everyone I meet.
Helping others in need.

I used to be a wonder woman.
Busy on dodging the flying bullets.
Positive mind on set.
No time you'll see me cry.

Now I'm no longer them.
I'm going far far away across the ocean.
Still trying to face the storm.
Running away from the rolling wave.
Wiping the countless tears.
Too bored to sit.
Too hard to awake.

But I set one on mind.
That I will get on the land very very soon.
Drink coconut and restart life.

But then I realized.
That I feel more human than I used to.
Crying more will never be a mistake.
Failure hurts, but dying before your death hurts more.

ー (written on March, 31st 2019)